When Crazy gets too much............

Do you ever have one of those days when it all gets too much. YESSSSS I hear you all scream! Do you ever get days when you just want to stand on a chair and scream........'I'm a mummy. Get me out of here.'!!!! So, in my crazy days this is where I imagine myself.

I live with my family ALONE  (yes I know! I can hear some disapproving sighs) in a cottage at the foot of a mountain. There is a forest to one side of the cottage and a river that runs past the front of the cottage. I have a vegetable patch at the back of the cottage plus a greenhouse where I can continue to grow my own fruit and veg in the winter months.  I also have a few chickens, goats and sheep. I do have  television in this cottage so that I can indulge my movie addiction.  I do have Internet access! Well there's gotta be some luxuries! The view outside my living room window is of a flower meadow and I sit on my window seat and gaze out at it. Sometimes I  have a picnic in the flower meadow and sit under a tree and read or write.  Just past the flower meadow is a beautiful lake, surrounded by more mountains. I have a little rowing boat that I sometimes sit in to read! Beside the lake there are also two large trees with a hammock tied to them so I lie and read and listen to the sound of the water.  My living room has a large open fireplace so big that logs are piled up either side of it. I have a huge comfy leather reading chair in front of the fire. In my kitchen is a huge range cooker where I cook and bake (ok in reality I can't bake for toffee but this is a daydream. Get with it!) I have a lovely big bedroom with a four poster bed. One wall is actually just made of glass so that I can lie in bed and enjoy the view or look at the stars at night. I also have an open fire in the bedroom. In this dream cottage I also have a study with floor to ceiling shelves for the thousands of books I will have. (Yes ok I know I'm probably halfway there with the book collection)! I will have a giant antique writing desk in here too where, when inspiration takes me, will churn out a blockbusting novel! In my luxury bathroom I will have a free standing claw foot bath and whilst in the bath I can also look out at the view of my meadow.

During the day I tend my garden or go for long walks. If the weather is nice I sit on my veranda where I have a rocking chair or a swing seat. I will read or write because in this dream life I am a successful writer and this is how I make my living. Twice a week I will drive to the nearby village and go to the farmers market where I will buy lots of lovely yummy fresh produce and meet with friends for lunch. I will grow my hair long again and dress like an old hippy.

Ok daydream rant over. I know this all sounds a bit mental. And it is! I've obviously given this imaginary place way too much thought!  I particularly like to go to this place when I am lying in the dentists chair and he is just about to rip my head off!  I know it sounds like I don't want my family around me and to be honest, some days I do feel like it would be nice just to be alone, because I am NEVER alone. There's always usually someone around and I miss 'alone time'. I miss the 'no noise' times. I crave the 'just lying on my arse and worrying about no-one' times. The 'doing what I like' times. I sometimes like to think about what it would be like not having endless rounds of appointments for FD, no meltdowns, no being a domestic bore, no work, no stress! I'm sure there are some people reading this and trying to psychoanalyse this post. Well, sorry to disappoint you but it has no hidden meaning. I don't want to opt out of my life and family. What I would like to do is sometimes have a bit of a daydream. Nothing wrong with that! Being alone does have its appeal but I think there's only so much of it you can cope with. I think! I wouldn't know as I've not had much!

 Where do you go when the Crazy gets too much and you disappear inside your head?